sunrises

yesterday we were at a bliss
tired from all the breath-holding
exhausted from all the contracting moments
time stood still
but we were happy
that's the irony

you and me
just a Saturday night away from being apart
i worry
for i know that it would be like a century
i don't know if i could handle this anxiety
of being away from you, even just for a few hours
maybe you were right
i am addicted...

my mornings always start right
when i see you asleep
right next to me

good morning J
what's for breakfast?

you lay there asleep on my old dirty sleeping bag.
i want to kiss you but i am afraid i'd wake you from your much needed slumber.
so much has happened today, much of it because of my immature emotional being.
at least everything is clear to me now.
i am reassured. no more questions. no more doubts.
i thought that it would take a while before i could let everything pass.
but you have magic.
just a text from you made all the difference.

i was hurt.
but i love you.
and that's all that really matters.

goodnight J. i love you so.

:)

i felt drained. i felt hopeless. it felt as if my life just ended. i basked in loneliness. the saga of my overcast days dragged me on to oblivion.

but then YOU... pushed one button.

reboot. restart. refreshed.

dreaming. still in limbo. too good to be true. everything so right. so perfect. a breathe of fresh air after all the turmoil. way better than seeing the rainbow after the rain.

thanks for the jumpstart. :)

hay buhay...

i always wonder why the best people are taken for granted by the very people they love. why is it that when you finally find the person you love, you soon discover that she is already taken by someone who doesn't even have the time to say goodnight to her or bother about how her day went? sometimes, life is just unfair. why can't some people reciprocate the love and attention they are receiving? how i wish i am him. how i wish he would love her the way i do. but life isn't always how i wish it would be. it never will be.

(written 10/12/09)

because i am so into you

i am carelessly stupid
i am downright clueless
i gracefully hesitate
i am running scared
before i even start

i walk on eggshells
i breathe the thin air
i hide behind my shadow
i speak in soft undertones
whenever you are around

i gaze into the empty sky
i think aimlessly deep
i negotiate with my subconscious
i fell sheer into reality
i can't break the silence

(written 10/02/09)

rain

rain keeps
falling on
me

flashes of your
images haunt
me

with eyes shut
i see you and
me

walking hand in hand
you laughing at
me

smiling back
i pull you close to
me

a magnificent sight
just you and
me

rain falling
you and
me

(written 09/26/09)

t.o.x.i.c

i know how tired you have been for the past weeks. it must have been hellish up there. will all the new faces you see and all the stupid questions you need to ask, it must have been crazy. i'll understand if you'd be a little moody and all grumpy. it's but natural. i'm thinking of asking you out for a drink or two. it's nothing special really, just to release stress. i'm hoping you'd say yes. i already know where we'd go. but then again, i have to muster all the guts to do it.

if i ask you, would you say yes?

(written 09/24/09)